Monday, December 22, 2008
today is the first time in my two yrs wif him,
i see him flare so seriously. so fierce. no joke at all.
i dun even dare to say anything lahr.
i noe how muuch he tried to put his family in his priorities.
n the usual him who doesnt plan his stuff is willing to plan his stuff tonight but wasnt approved. it kind of hurts! n how much he tried to come over tonight so tat he can pei me send my dad off in like 2-3hours.
hmm. 2days n a half and i'm off to HK. leaving deardear for 4/5 days. apparently i tot i'll be like super stranger to him le. but still duno why. maybe cos he really tried to come over these days. not like wad i tot he's totally ignorant n not doing anything at all. tho he might not be doing to the ideal smtimes, but guess it's better than nothing. such a mentality helps to make tings simpler. but can it make tings last? or gonnabe like my parents? until one day when everybody just decided to chao it out until cannot be happie together anymore?
i just realised i can be totally honest n straightforward in front of him.
but i never noe, when will de next ls or k to appear, so being really veri comfortable when with him? sometimes it's not cos of the worries n the facts sometimes. otherwise i tink i can lead tis kind of life. depression problem diminishing oso. it's just sm perfect lifestyle i haf in my brain.
sometimes like tis, i feel blissful to haf him next to me.
i duno why but today, i feel like treasuring him.
off to slp, in his arms,
him by my side.
PS: i really hope all tis is cause of the effort put in by the two of us, and not me alone.
i see him flare so seriously. so fierce. no joke at all.
i dun even dare to say anything lahr.
i noe how muuch he tried to put his family in his priorities.
n the usual him who doesnt plan his stuff is willing to plan his stuff tonight but wasnt approved. it kind of hurts! n how much he tried to come over tonight so tat he can pei me send my dad off in like 2-3hours.
hmm. 2days n a half and i'm off to HK. leaving deardear for 4/5 days. apparently i tot i'll be like super stranger to him le. but still duno why. maybe cos he really tried to come over these days. not like wad i tot he's totally ignorant n not doing anything at all. tho he might not be doing to the ideal smtimes, but guess it's better than nothing. such a mentality helps to make tings simpler. but can it make tings last? or gonnabe like my parents? until one day when everybody just decided to chao it out until cannot be happie together anymore?
i just realised i can be totally honest n straightforward in front of him.
but i never noe, when will de next ls or k to appear, so being really veri comfortable when with him? sometimes it's not cos of the worries n the facts sometimes. otherwise i tink i can lead tis kind of life. depression problem diminishing oso. it's just sm perfect lifestyle i haf in my brain.
sometimes like tis, i feel blissful to haf him next to me.
i duno why but today, i feel like treasuring him.
off to slp, in his arms,
him by my side.
PS: i really hope all tis is cause of the effort put in by the two of us, and not me alone.
2:25 AM
