Thursday, January 1, 2009
emo...
cos was all alone at home tonight..
hmm made a wrong choice..
but wad to do..
realised had been a long time since i wrote stg nice for him..
it's quite a sad ting to say tat we r both not de mushy mushy kind..
tho he maybe one before or he just lazy to be one..
tho maybe i'm one who is super super shy n paiseh..
we just end up to wad we are today..
let's try yahr.. !
for the past 28 mths, i've been thru alot wif him..
not to mention the unhappie beginning.. just the year 2008..
he's really one who has showed me what's kind-hearted and not a petty soul..
despite how angry he was to anybody else, he was still able to carry himself well..
when i angered him, he just kept quiet and not chao wif me..
rmbed those times in his hall when i cried terribly, if i had not been trying to ask him wad's wrong wad's wrong n asked him to tok n say what he's feeling, had he not respond to me, this relationship wudnt haf come so far. come to think about it it's quite a farni one. guess we both cant stand cheating on each other. we are just too honest to each other. i love!
all the times of unhappiness, the laughters, the cold wars, the kind of pushing each other aways, the kind of hugging each other, kisses, and unseen concern.. it's just too much to be summarised.
right now, i'm working hard to getting use to the not seeing him everyday. perhaps he's enjoying now with his frens, he dun even haf time to reply my msges. =(
aiyah.. but i really dun feel like quarrelling anymore. what can i ask for more righ? when for the past 3 days, i see him almost every minute he can make for me. tink about it onli, i felt the warmth; i felt the love. looking into his eyes, i can see his love for me. not forgetting me, not dumping me one side. love is really all about hoping. as a simple woman, i haf onli one ting to hope. tat's to find a man tat loves me truely n showering me wif endless care unconditionally; whenever i look into the eyes of this man, i know he's the one.
i hope he's the one. for i haven been observing until these few days. eyes can tok. i truely believe in it.
and many times i passed by any shop that sells rings,
i just ask myself to forget it.
it kindof hurts somtimes tho.
but i duno wad he's tinking.
perhaps the ring isnt tat impt,
it's how he treats me.
i haf no idea whether to haf or not haf the ring.
shud i be happie to be without the ring?
or shud i be sad without the ring?
din say anything in front of him, wanting him to noe it without my request like last time.
it's like impossible to get the ring back.
actually to be honest losing the ring is my fault. really.
sighs.
i really hope i can be a happie ger.
i really hope that in 2009 everything can be wonderful.
i really hope the two of us can trust each other n share everything wif each other.
i really hope we can be together, treating each other wholeheartedly.
i really hope i can get a second upper class.
i really hope i can find a good job upon graduation.
i really hope i can get a good pay.
i really hope i can make my life a fulfilling one.
i really hope i can get out of my shell n not be the little snail keep tinking about little tings tat hurts myself but doesnt even bothers him.
i really hope there's always stars i can see every night before i slp - it gifs me a sense of security, like a bedtime stories.
i really hope true frens stay.
i really hope my mum can be happie too.
i just hope everybody can be happie in everybody's presence.
ps: i sooooo wanna go esplanade to write my wishes on the white ball for the year 2009.
cos was all alone at home tonight..
hmm made a wrong choice..
but wad to do..
realised had been a long time since i wrote stg nice for him..
it's quite a sad ting to say tat we r both not de mushy mushy kind..
tho he maybe one before or he just lazy to be one..
tho maybe i'm one who is super super shy n paiseh..
we just end up to wad we are today..
let's try yahr.. !
for the past 28 mths, i've been thru alot wif him..
not to mention the unhappie beginning.. just the year 2008..
he's really one who has showed me what's kind-hearted and not a petty soul..
despite how angry he was to anybody else, he was still able to carry himself well..
when i angered him, he just kept quiet and not chao wif me..
rmbed those times in his hall when i cried terribly, if i had not been trying to ask him wad's wrong wad's wrong n asked him to tok n say what he's feeling, had he not respond to me, this relationship wudnt haf come so far. come to think about it it's quite a farni one. guess we both cant stand cheating on each other. we are just too honest to each other. i love!
all the times of unhappiness, the laughters, the cold wars, the kind of pushing each other aways, the kind of hugging each other, kisses, and unseen concern.. it's just too much to be summarised.
right now, i'm working hard to getting use to the not seeing him everyday. perhaps he's enjoying now with his frens, he dun even haf time to reply my msges. =(
aiyah.. but i really dun feel like quarrelling anymore. what can i ask for more righ? when for the past 3 days, i see him almost every minute he can make for me. tink about it onli, i felt the warmth; i felt the love. looking into his eyes, i can see his love for me. not forgetting me, not dumping me one side. love is really all about hoping. as a simple woman, i haf onli one ting to hope. tat's to find a man tat loves me truely n showering me wif endless care unconditionally; whenever i look into the eyes of this man, i know he's the one.
i hope he's the one. for i haven been observing until these few days. eyes can tok. i truely believe in it.
and many times i passed by any shop that sells rings,
i just ask myself to forget it.
it kindof hurts somtimes tho.
but i duno wad he's tinking.
perhaps the ring isnt tat impt,
it's how he treats me.
i haf no idea whether to haf or not haf the ring.
shud i be happie to be without the ring?
or shud i be sad without the ring?
din say anything in front of him, wanting him to noe it without my request like last time.
it's like impossible to get the ring back.
actually to be honest losing the ring is my fault. really.
sighs.
i really hope i can be a happie ger.
i really hope that in 2009 everything can be wonderful.
i really hope the two of us can trust each other n share everything wif each other.
i really hope we can be together, treating each other wholeheartedly.
i really hope i can get a second upper class.
i really hope i can find a good job upon graduation.
i really hope i can get a good pay.
i really hope i can make my life a fulfilling one.
i really hope i can get out of my shell n not be the little snail keep tinking about little tings tat hurts myself but doesnt even bothers him.
i really hope there's always stars i can see every night before i slp - it gifs me a sense of security, like a bedtime stories.
i really hope true frens stay.
i really hope my mum can be happie too.
i just hope everybody can be happie in everybody's presence.
ps: i sooooo wanna go esplanade to write my wishes on the white ball for the year 2009.
10:45 PM
