Wednesday, March 25, 2009
♥ rational thinking -adopted from KLES-
for a while i tot of stg
i always tried to make the effort to go ntu
so that i can see him more
but did he appreciate it?
by maybe suggesting he'll keep me company by forgoing the play play session?
when he had no choice but to go for training, he had once left me alone to cry by myself.
during pageant, he can think for his disney family cos they purposely go down, booked a room tog to support him. so he must be there.
aren't i supporting him by saving him a trip to my place? pei-ing him study?
sometimes he just unconsciously or insensitively or shun bian-ly forget about "me"...
hmm.. sometimes this kind of thing it's not whether u wun think of it or not deardear.. is whether u wan to appreciate the people beside u or not.. if everything oso i say, might as well i'm having a relationship with myself only?
n today, i'm so worried that yst we tok abt so many things that he can forget abt stg very impt that i said which i'm very concerned...
u noe if u haf ur own thinking n i haf mine n it doesnt coincide at all, or u haf ur own freedom n i haf my own freedom not questioning abt each other, or meeting once a week, or tok for only a few hours, or like strangers lidat, is this really a relationship or just friend friend?
earlier tots about how we began floats in my mind.. u cud tok to me abt melissa.. not like "she damn fucked up" kind of thing.. u never said that too me before.. not those nasty stuff.. so i wonder what kind of nasty stuff will u say to ur frens when we haf sm hiccups.. y cant u just tok to me about it or maybe tok to me abt it like after u cool down or stg? tat's y i really dun understand y u cud open up everything to me in the past.. but recently things start to change.. n when i tried to find solutions for u n melissa.. i never questioned she's a bad ger nor input negative stuff about her. i just hoped that u cud haf a nice tok wif her, thrash things out, maybe she's just doing things to grab ur attention.. there cud be stg tat's gg on but u duno.. wanted u to find out from her.. hope that uall can tok things out.. solve whatever problem that exist.. isnt this what u loved about me?
i always tried to make the effort to go ntu
so that i can see him more
but did he appreciate it?
by maybe suggesting he'll keep me company by forgoing the play play session?
when he had no choice but to go for training, he had once left me alone to cry by myself.
during pageant, he can think for his disney family cos they purposely go down, booked a room tog to support him. so he must be there.
aren't i supporting him by saving him a trip to my place? pei-ing him study?
sometimes he just unconsciously or insensitively or shun bian-ly forget about "me"...
hmm.. sometimes this kind of thing it's not whether u wun think of it or not deardear.. is whether u wan to appreciate the people beside u or not.. if everything oso i say, might as well i'm having a relationship with myself only?
n today, i'm so worried that yst we tok abt so many things that he can forget abt stg very impt that i said which i'm very concerned...
u noe if u haf ur own thinking n i haf mine n it doesnt coincide at all, or u haf ur own freedom n i haf my own freedom not questioning abt each other, or meeting once a week, or tok for only a few hours, or like strangers lidat, is this really a relationship or just friend friend?
earlier tots about how we began floats in my mind.. u cud tok to me abt melissa.. not like "she damn fucked up" kind of thing.. u never said that too me before.. not those nasty stuff.. so i wonder what kind of nasty stuff will u say to ur frens when we haf sm hiccups.. y cant u just tok to me about it or maybe tok to me abt it like after u cool down or stg? tat's y i really dun understand y u cud open up everything to me in the past.. but recently things start to change.. n when i tried to find solutions for u n melissa.. i never questioned she's a bad ger nor input negative stuff about her. i just hoped that u cud haf a nice tok wif her, thrash things out, maybe she's just doing things to grab ur attention.. there cud be stg tat's gg on but u duno.. wanted u to find out from her.. hope that uall can tok things out.. solve whatever problem that exist.. isnt this what u loved about me?
i wanted to haf a long chat wif ya tonight about these. but i'm just so afraid things might be screwed up again. so these are my tots.
PEEPTOM! dun read le never say anything hor.
there's always http://www.stupstupnpigpig.blogspot.com/ =P
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